Psalm 103: 1-5
Praise the Lord, my soul; all my inmost being, praise His holy name. Praise the Lord, my soul and forget not all His benefits, who forgives all your sins and heals all your diseases, who redeems your life from the pit and crowns you with love and compassion, who satisfies your desires with good things s that your youth is renewed like the eagle's.
Since May of last year, I have been on a journey that has taken me through a roller-coaster of emotions. At 39 years of age, I found out my dad was NOT my biological father. My mother lied to me my entire life and in 2012, she took that secret to her grave. You could imagine what that may feel like, now multiply that by a thousand.
So during this journey and all of its twists and turns. The late nights weeping and utterly broken. The anger I have felt towards my mother and the confusion and feelings of betrayal have all been very tangible and heavy. I would be lying if I said I didn't deal with bitterness and downright hate for her at times. And in all honesty, even now those waves still crash ashore in my heart, often times when I least expect it. The journey of forgiveness has been brutally hard but I am determined to truly forgive because He has forgiven me. But what has gotten me through it?
Psalm 103 has been an awesome example to me and I want to encourage you to read the entire chapter and apply the example in your daily worship. King David worshiped the Lord, and during those psalms he was also speaking to his own heart. He was reminding his spirit of Gods benefits, His healing power, His redemption, His love for him. He was reminding himself of God's righteousness, His Justice, His power, and His compassion. I have discovered through the years, when I worship Him in my anguish and turmoil, when I fall to my knees and sing of His promises, regardless of what my dire circumstances look like, I remind my heart, my spirit and mind, of His power and goodness. He has given us a powerful tool to persevere through the hardest parts of our journeys. WORSHIP!
Last week on April 19th, at the age of 40, I met my biological father for the first time. After a year of DNA testing, searching, and learning hard to swallow truths, we found him. It was an awesome union. God was faithful to me. But I had to remind myself of His faithfulness in worship, even before I saw it fulfilled.
Praise God from whom all blessing flow!
Dan Ousley - Worship Leader StoneBridge Baptist Church